Feb 4 | slcsux's Blog

Today was a day full of sleeping (at least the daytime part of it). After I dropped Jo off at school, I came back home and took an hr nap before getting ready for rehearsal. It was a great rehearsal!  We added a lot more to our duet and were given some spoken lines as well. This show is going to be so amazing. After dance, I stopped by Wendy's and picked up some lunch. When I got home I ate, watched a little TV and then took a 3 or 4 hr nap. It felt sooo good. I woke up around 5 and got ready to go pick Jo up. I decided to make homemade pizzas for dinner with whole wheat crusts and turkey pepperoni. I'm sure it was much healthier than the Little Cesar's we usually get. I did indulge and get some brownies and coke too. Jo wore her fairy princess costume for the school read-a-thon. She looked really good when she left home this morning but this afternoon her crown was gone and she was covered in dirt and her white boots were no longer white. Maybe I can clean them with a little bleach. My night was OK until I decided to go on Twitter and look up Tony Brown. Boy was that a huge mistake! I found out that he is now the father of 2!. This was so very hurtful because when I got pregnant when we were together, he did not want the baby. He said he couldn't afford it and he didn't want to look at it and resent it because he was struggling, etc. I believed him at the time but obviously he just didn't want a baby with me. I cried and cried for a long time. I must have only gotten 2 hrs of sleep. He never loved me and probably everything he told me was part of some game he was playing. I don't care anymore. I  know now he is never going to call me or want to be with me again or even be friends with me. I'm sorry for whatever I did to make him hate me so much.